Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Random

For a while now I have been trying to come up with a blog post. It has been a while since I wrote something. And even longer since it came out as an article.

In the past couple of months I have witnessed many things that earlier seemed rather ordinary. There have been weddings, parties, as well as fights and disagreements.

With each one of these, there has been a distinct feeling that was born in me. Some of these events marked a feeling of complete pleasure, undeterred by the rest of the events.While others reaped a feeling of void.

This void is something that has fascinated me. Appealed me. Even appalled me. This void is something that is inexplicable and yet is evident.

This void is like a long haul. A wait for something that doesn't exist. Or may be it did, but is dead now.

A wait for something that you do not even know. It may be a text, a call, door bell, or a person. It may even be a pay cheque, new client, new friend. I know not!

In time I am sure though the wait will be over. In time... I just have to wait for it. It is a feeling I cannot put in words. No, it aint even a phase, do not demean it by saying it is.

It exists as much as I do. Its only for you to see it the way you see me.

So what may seem rather ordinary isn't really that. The void, wait, or even the sheer happiness. Do not tag it as a repercussion of an event. It is not a reaction. Well, not only that.

I tried to look at it in a different way, and found myself writing this. The void still exists. I am still waiting.But I am also happy. And the reason for both... well you'll have to wait till I figure that too.